I had a big slap in the face, so I'm moving again, though! I'm really sick and darn tired of slow-no weight loss. This week I had SO much to do, I said to hay with it, and just did the best I could with eating, but not counting. I just didn't have enough hours in the day to do everything, so of course since my meal planning isn't paying off, that was the first to go out the window. Boy was I wrong. I gained a pound or a pound and a half, depending on which weigh in I go by. So I'd rather have that measly half pound loss any day. So then last night after weighing in, I have a really embarrassing dream. Ok, part of it is embarrassing.
In my dream, I was Kate Middleton's personal assistant. She and Camilla Parker Bowles hated each other, and it was a big scandal. So I'm wearing unflattering clothes and no makeup and having a big happy convo with my new bestie Kate, (she really liked me) and all the sudden up walks Camilla with smiles and an outstretched hand. So Kate opens her arms to hug her, and this was the photo of the century and hundreds of cameras pop up out of nowhere and I slinked off and sit on the couch with all the other assistants. I say to the really handsome one, "I sure hope I don't wind up in the background on the cover of People" and he asks "why", and I said "because I look like a cow" and he said 'Then why don't you do something about it?' I actually felt that TADAAAA moment and heard the bells ring in my dream, and did I mention it was a very real dream...so real that it felt like I may be in a parallel universe type of dream? I mumbled 'blah blah polycystic ovaries...' and I knew instantly by the look on his face and the actual words streaming out of my mouth like drool, that my issues are stumbling blocks, not excuses. There really aren't any excuses. I am not excused from lack of weight loss. If I excuse myself, I probably die early, and even if I don't, I'm sure going to miss out on a lot of fun and experience more misery than I deserve. So there. Thanks handsome guy, even if you probably are Camilla Parker Bowles assistant in another universe, you found me and made me think.
Today, planning comes first. I will learn to make better use of my time, and I will try to stamp out procrastination. Oh heck, here comes my list. I'd also like to organize my life and my home. And clean, and mop and dust and file away everything on my desk and so on and so on. This is where I get overwhelmed! So I have to back up and just get to the planning portion. Meal planning and exercise planning. That's key.
